sometimes the days are long
and the nights are longer...
sometimes the work is hard
and it all seems insurmountable...
sometimes the tears trickle down
and sometimes they fall so hard you can't catch your breath...
I've been gone for a while - blogless and unblogged.
I have had pangs of guilt along my journey, for being so silenced.
I have had feelings of, "it's okay...God is up to something."
It always bothers me, though, when people blog, just to blog, and don't really have anything to say. So, I saved you some pain of reading pointless, purposeless verbiage that wouldn't help anyone.
But, now, for today, I am back.
Back to share tidbits I've picked up on my little hiatus. I may have been absent from my blog, but I've not been absent from my trek through this life. I've been through some valleys and I've been on some mountaintops, as I'm sure you have.
I will attempt to share the best parts with you, straight from my heart.
I've learned and re-learned a few things in the last year.
First, I've learned that my (our) feelings do not determine if God is present or faithful. He is. No matter what, He is faithful, and He is present. At times, I felt like I had been abandoned and forgotten. I felt like the foundation I built my life on wasn't very stable. I felt like my world had been rocked. None of those feelings, though, changed where God was. He was right there with me the whole time. Silent, He was.... but He was there.
The second thing I've learned is that my (our) Father doesn't hold grudges and bash us with our past mistakes and sinful choices. He truly casts away our sins as far as the east is away from the west. When He casts them away, He washes us inside and out with His perfect grace.
He doesn't keep a record of my wrongs and hold the list up in my face, pointing with His almighty pointer, while grimacing at me with His face.
Rather than all that, He says, "Come here, My child. Sit in my arms. Rest. Wait. You are safe. You are forgiven. You are loved."
Thirdly, I've learned that sometimes He doesn't give us answers when we demand it of Him, or on our time table. He operates in such a different way from us. We can't even understand it. We so badly want to put Him in our box and have Him work our lives out just like we want them. We want to tell Him what His will should be for our lives. And we ask for His blessings, having already figured out in our minds exactly what they should look like and how they should present themselves in our lives.
Lastly, I've learned that He is God. He has, exceedingly beyond our imagination, incredible wisdom. He is more powerful than the strongest power we can experience on Earth (hurricanes, tornados, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, glaciers moving, etc.). Whatever we can imagine... He is more.
So, as I face uncertainty today, I can rest easy, knowing with all certainty, that I have placed my trust in the most trustworthy Being to ever be... past, present, and the forever future. With full confidence, I can know that He loves me and has a perfect "for me" plan. Trust Him is all I have to do. It's not always easy - and it's usually not quick, but it is steadfast and sure.
Be encouraged as you continue your walk with Him. And don't give up, if you feel lost or abandoned. If you can't pray, just call His name, over and over.... "Jesus". He will come.
He is ever faithful and true. And He loves you.